yeah i know

but again, i'm not here for you so stop being so vain

i just read this article about a little 6 yr old girl that died of brain cancer and how, in the last 255 days of her life she managed to hide now 3 containers full of notes of love for her mom, dad, and little sister all over the house....
they say they didn't know she knew she was dying - but obviously she had written these with intent....they are hidden everywhere and done with intent

made me cry:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/33505351/ns/today-today_books/

so i've been thinking about the great beyond lately and how life can change in the blink of an eye....and i've decided that is a great idea

not on a morbid i'm doomed trip
but more like....aware of life's fleeting changes and just in chase i would like to hide some notes like that for people in my family

hopefully, they will remain hidden long enough for me to forget i even hid them....or they show up and we laugh about them at my 92nd birthday party...
but if not? maybe someone will get a special smile and laugh and bit of love from beyond that i left tucked somewhere

like that very special, very wise, young girl

be well wanderers
hope all is well in your worlds

raven

sign of the times...focus on what's right, instead of what's wrong

hello to anyone lurking around today

i am posting today a message i just put in the forums in my beloved site that began as a discussion about the government and how much everyone is struggling financially and what the stress is doing to all of us

do you all see......can you feel it
the tension in the air...the sense that something might snap at any second
whether it's you or the post office guy or your mom?

we're tearing each other apart and we need to stop...and look at it from another angle. we need to look at each other and say..here, this is what i have, this is what i can do...what can i do for you to help you today?

i have a friend who is a goddess of giving. when she is in her worst places...where you feel like you've no choice and no power...
she looks around and finds one thing she CAN do.

she has no money coming in, no work, but by god she can get her house immaculately clean and give me 3 hours to myself without my smallest member of my herd.


do THAT. today. make it a point. begin this weekend with something you can do. ok...i can't do this.....but i CAN do this.

and read what i wrote in the thread about loving each other
it's important whether you think it's lame or not.

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oh you guys..this thread is so packed full of emotion and pain. i'm not a group hugger type o gal but i was just overwhelmed by the feeling as i read all of these pages that i wish i could just wrap my arms around all of us

let's not turn on each other in all of this

i just realized...my friends and i have been joking that everyone..from work to family to message boards to the world...seems to be pms'ing …and we’ve been musing about what the hell is going on with people...
this is it!! *seems like a stupid aha moment…but has anyone else been going …DAMN why’s everybody so snarky lately?* the tension from this whole situation and it's world wide trickle down has the vibe of the planet all wacked out

and here we all are...scared, frustrated, angry, struggling, trying to put on a positive face but just under the surface we're raw and ready to scrap and yell and not listen..or hear each other

fow is right...the gov't and the banks and the bigshots got us in this place. now we're all screwed up and it's literally affected the whole planet's economy and energy and they are (many of them) still sitting pretty while we scramble

we need to love each other and lock arms and get ourselves outta this mess because they sure as hell aren't going to. And remember it’s not just the Americans ---I have friends in Holland and the uk watching and experiencing the same.

now i understand...what my friend was saying how by 2010 we will need to be able to relearn how to be self sufficient and be able to survive in a 10 - 20 mile radius off of our own resources. we will have to all help each other get by. it's already starting

love each other *hears kum baya in the background* we the people, the human race, need to actually look out for each other for real for awhile…go easy on each other. Speak more gently…see with kinder eyes

i just had to get help from the govt. this week...but i look forward to my lease being up in a couple of months...downsizing my rent and living space and making serious vegetable garden. think about getting a chicken or two. talk to the dude up the road that sells meat. two of my friends and i talked about a large property here in town with 5 small old cabins on it and how communal living maybe isn't so far fetched. we've both been laid off in the last month and we have 4 kids, one of them hasn't been able to find work for 3 months and the other just had her work reduced to 3 days a week.

I had to get help for Christmas dinner…is it hard to post this? You bet your ass. I’m proud and tough and I work hard. But you know what I did? I stayed there for hours and unloaded and loaded cars for other people needing help. I watched teachers and parents dropping off food and gifts…watched the 6 women buzz around that community cupboard and move and shake our little worlds….(I love you cindy) and a friend and I offered to drive boxes of food to the elderly if they didn’t have enough people to drive.
I helped as I needed help and they balanced each other. I loved the people there and they loved me…the positive energy in there was amazing…not guilt..not shame….just…let’s help each other get through this

Damn
I’ve gone on long enough. Sorry to have been so long winded
If I offended someone somehow with this post I didn’t mean to
I was just overwhelmed with emotion and wanted to make some sort of plea
Even it’s it’s cheese ball sounding

Thanks for reading though
I’m gonna go shower now and try, again, to shake it off and restart. To make somebody laugh. To create something…to tell people I love them
Go have a great day…

(((((Hugs))))

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be well wanderers

raven xxx

girl power and the pace of america

elaborating on the whole lovey dovey wonder if he knows vibe ....from the last post

i don't mean to sound as though i couldn't survive, if i had to....by myself...cuz' i'm not one of those that lays down or waits for someone else to make things happen or save me

and there are so many pieces to the puzzle that is me...it'll never be whole again anyway...but it would be another piece missing

one that i love more than i know how to explain to the recipient..more than i will admit in an out-loud voice

curious...why do i feel a need to clarify that? because we all get defensive in love and relations and i don't .....strike that...i CAN'T leave myself too vunerable again..so the knee jerk reaction is i'd be fine and i'm ok....
because if i'm not ok, and he leaves at some point that means he could crush me and i won't give up that power

which in so many ways is sad love is played like that because we've all been so burned before that every time we let people in a little less...but que sera sera...am what i am...

it will be interesting, tho, to look around in 10 years and see who's still standing around me

a friend of mine wrote me recently about me being too busy all the time, which is parshally why i can't write here more...
but i've been thinking....it's the pace of america is it not?

our super sized super fast super sale super store get more get it now happier hyperer greasier lifestyle that is all pressure all the time get yours free today!!!!

seriously. if you've ever been to europe...well, some places in europe anyway...for an extended period of time you'll notice that time passes differently.....and people seem on a different clock...

never rushing....never stressed...just going along with the flow of the day in a lazy fine with the world sort of pace

they've got something figured out we don't i'll tell you....it's because, (i think) they've been around longer than we have to figure out the societal thing and minding their own business instead of commenting on everyone's lives and behaviour which is another downfall of ours

i'm so tired....tired to a place where even when you get time to sit it's sort of in a zombied can't think anymore between chores or working state rather than sleepy gonna read a book by the window and take a lazy nap

i think too many people are too rushed...too overworked...too worried and self analytical

i think we've created our own little hurricane for ourselves and that's why everybody...well...most...seem so exasperated and ready to complain that you meet

i've changed my mind......now, along with our federally mandated massages....i'm saying it's a massage followed by a nap.
every day. without fail

wouldn't that be nice? yes, i'm a dreamer. what's your point?

ok i'm going now...back to my artworking

just checking in

be well wanderers

raven