don't you get sick of being sorry
or worrying about what others will think
or hiding things

it stifles your soul
to not do what's calling you

even if it's a cigarette..in peace..no judgement...a moment or 30....alone you force with a tar ridden cancer stick that you freaking love

or taking the quiet time in the witching hour and typing your little heart out without regard or worry if anyone will get angry or suspicious of your keystrokes

or saying what your really thinking instead of sugar coating or putting it off for better timing

i think when you grow old you get to do that more and without apology....who cares if they think your a crazy curmudgeon

i look forward to that

or reading about all the nasty violent mostly death ridden stories that splash the news every day

or about all of the things we're supposed to be afraid of or feel guilty for

what have we done to ourselves with our media and our 'news' and our judgments of every little thing we do or don't do

sighs

i already stopped getting tv.....then the newspaper...i still catch it all online though. ironic to me that when i read msnbc news and scroll over the link titled US Life...i see so many stories about death

it drains me....makes me want to go into hibernation and recharge my batteries without so much negative controlling bullshit hovering around