Sunday, July 22, 2007

seeing round the bend

how many people actually acknowledge that they have instinct or a sixth sense?

how many are afraid of it i wonder

more than embrace it i'd guess.

the problem with knowing you have an instinct to be heeded is knowing how to read it and reign it in. especially if you have an overactive imagination.

the times i've been the most dead on haven't had anything to do with something i've had time to analyze. it's split second...not even thinking about it decisions...and some have actually saved a life.

but over the years i've realized that i knew things.....had an instinct about it before the event...and if i'd listened to it, if i'd realized it was my instinct, things would have come out differently.

so...i decided i'd try to figure out when to pay attention to recurring thoughts or emotions that might actually be your instinct piping up before the fact...rather than brushing things off as if they are just normal human stuff... being nervous or anxious...like a trip somewhere or a new job or the kids wanting to visit a new friend or who knows what. we worry about any number of thousands of things these days....will this go well...am i doing the right thing.....making the right choice....on the right path
you get the picture

but what if we could tune into what our spirit already knows when our gut goes all crazy or our hearts race and we feel as though we might not be in total view of clarity

i know i could hear it
if i could figure out how to listen better

calm and quiet more in the sea of my own chaos of kids and work and life

it's hard to trust it. not to call that friend you have a sudden feeling about at one am....because it might wake her family or seem weird. so i harbor most of what i sense...wondering often if i just have brain run or an overactive imagination

or if i really sense the things i think (know) i do...and what to do about acting on it

just a vent for the evening
hope all is well in the land of wanderers

be well

raven