more than a week later since i told my boss the truth about why i had to leave
...amazing....time flies
so much has passed over the time it took me to decide this
......i...being drawn and quartered at my job and what i was allowed to do over the last months
became stifled and stuck and mired in the mud of bullshit
for too long
but finally...somehow....i found the strength to quit
and i have found some clarity...some light to reach for in my knowing my own work ethic...that it wasn't my fault that i could not live with the irrationalities of simple business practices that should have been adhered to
and yet i was the scapegoat
for anything that did not go well
or as planned
and i knew it
he readied me to look bad with his family and acquaintences....so that when i left it would seem as though i just couldn't take the pressure...instead of the reality of not being able to agree with the ludicrous way he wanted to run things.
it matters not now though does it.
now that i gave my two weeks notice
and i was dropped kicked
"most people do that nowadays" have said many to me....as if that is the common business practice in america
"that doesn't make it right" is my response...when i think of all the energy and change i brought in my moments....all my light
so let it go
i tell myself
let it dissolve like fine powder in water
but still i think of my friends
of the laughter
of the challenges we overcame together
of how much the dream if making it wonderful
fell
apart
for me anyway
sighs
i miss you all so
black bird
xxx
