new day

ok so
good morning!

let's be all shiny today, shall we?
so far, the day has gone well...
i woke up...yelled at myself to just make up my frigging mind...decided to break a bunch of commitments which suprisingly was very liberating
(thank you sark)
and decided to take a chance on a whim which may very well prove to be much more stressful than i dare take on buuuuuuut

what the hell

if i died monday would i be pissed i didn't go this weekend?
yeah. if nothing else to witness an actual body painter...which i imagine will be very cool

AND i might get contracted to paint the entire inside of a small art haus
AND i will get to get a break from being momma and be jen here and there
AND i will most likely have a drink or 5 and smoke too many cigarettes

which is good on 2 levels
1 - i could give a shit mode i'm having a night off
which everyone needs once in awhile
and 2 - reality check the next day where you are thankful for being out of that phase but you really can FEEL you stepped away from the little box called life and blew out the sides a bit


is that an odd way to weigh your options...if i died tomorrow...what would i think about this or that
hm
well i do think that way...often
almost every time i guess come to think of it

how about you?

be well nomads
raven x