midnight exactly. hmmmmm. i haven't done that in awhile.
when i used to journal i'd notice that it was every day around midnight or 1 am that i'd write
and here i am again, weaving words at precisly the witching hour
i've had a headache for 9 days. isn't that just....wrong? i got sick with, i think, strep or some other nasty cold virus on the 23rd. i'm just now coming out of that whole lovely two weeks and last tues. the cold symptoms largely vanished but a headache remained. at first i thought it residual...then i was convinced it's something i've tweaked in my neck and shoulders...others claim i must have a sinus infection. i don't know but if my head doesn't actually blow off my shoulders by monday and i'm still feelin this i'm going to the doctor. which, mind you, i hate to do and have to be seriously damaged to go to one...because, i am stubborn...
on another note, everyone should just be granted a decent 1 hr massage every week. it should be federally mandated. if i was president, that would be remedied. it does so much for your body and health and is very much preventative medicine, and if you don't know it you would just be amazed if you got a real massage on a regular basis, how theraputic it is...if they weren't at least 50$ an hour i'd have done it already.....but tis the plight of the poor eh?
i missed the full moon yesterday. that was bad. i promised myself i'd get together with la luna monthly....and then i go fall asleep in my computer chair. it's that wild life i lead of a working mother of 4....killin me
no not really...wouldn't trade it. just.....you know...tired.
dammmmn. enough whining already.
what's the point today?
lucky girl i am. finding one of those really good men............some days i wonder when i'm all....grungy and momma-in or workin or not at my most patient if he wonders what the hell he's doing
or if i appreciate him....even as we are...here...4 years later...
but i wonder if he knows i watch him when he hikes or talks to the kids or just sits and reads the net...i can see a spirit so strong and kind and embracing...i wonder if he knows
even though we're both gun shy from loves gone bad....or we get busy with life and work and children....
how he is cherished. and if i woke again alone.....not just again, as in '''oh woe is me i'm alone again so many bad relationships' but alone specifically without this man
i wouldn't be myself
a puzzle missing a piece
doesn't everybody drive each other a little crazy sometimes? me thinks surely we do.....
but i love him still
more than i can tell him
more than he realizes
my gentle viking
this too shall pass.....bring on spring....enough snow and cold already...and it's only january
sigh
be well wanderers
raven
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